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And then out of nowhere she calls and here I am again, I fall Without a doubt, it all comes down to the way she made me frown and there is nothing else I could have done knowing she has always been the one But she is the one that I've always hated she's the one who broke me and turned me jaded Nothing else could have made me feel the way she makes my dreams real but nothing else would make me want her because I don't want this, nothing else matter All to it is just that painful memory and wishful thinking of you and me a past that I can never recover a future that I'll never encounter and while I take a sip into oblivion hating this senti

Hooks clinging on to the pathetic armor I call courage and the last vestige of my sanity slips towards oblivion Sleep flees as I seek refuge in the emptiness beyond the dreams and yet nothing and no one finds me in need or disrepair Every stumble and and every motion aches as I lay waiting for the storm to end and let me come and touch the light but all there is are the silent drips on to the floor telling me there will be more, and so much more Oh my muse, my love and my source of insanity My obsession, my light and how I loathe thee On a whim, truth bends upon your convenience While I, foolish and wretched don't even know the difference

My present and your tomorrow Who guards the guardsmen? Who protects the guilty? Who are the great and the meek? Would the truth be hidden even when we seek? How do I tell you my child, my daughter About how we have moulded your future About the disdain and disgust we've felt When many atrocious deeds were dealt We know our present will be your building block where all wonderful opportunities will be unlocked Yet all is in disarray and brewing calamity Oh how do we fight to prevent a looming tragedy? We dread the moment when you have to set foot Upon our country which is rotting from the root Where you will encounter bias, bigotry, and mis

Without you I wouldn't want the moon. I won’t have any use for it as I slumber till noon. Without you, I wouldn't want to reach the stars I’d be content into looking at fancy cars. Without you, I wouldn't want to go beyond comfort. I'd be happy within my imaginary court. Neither would I’d want to push my limit when halfhearted efforts gives me a passing merit. But you've shown me such smile when you've gazed at the moon and the stars. And saw your bliss when we go travel so far. Felt your admiration when we learn something new As you delight knowing more than you once knew Without you, I’d be stationary stagn

I am drowning in the torrent of emotion Dumbfounded in the swirl of sorrow Slowly being swallowed into depression Doubt Disappointment Denial Fight over territory While my fading will fumbles in every futile attempt to fight off fatigue. All this while time continue to flow indifferently to my pleas I wear the mask of normalcy, but it slow crack under my war torn heart. Oh, what disaster have i brought myself? What seeds did i plant to reap such unhappiness? What happened to me? When did all of this happen? How much hubris did I had to think that I could take all the burden? What folly did I had to think that I could be responsible

Stumbling, I am afraid I try not to waste your patience but my voice slowly starts to fade and nothing seems to make sense terrified, I tried, I still tried but I can see you losing faith and your tears couldn't even hide and all I could do is clench in self hate When did it went? Where did it go? I try to speak again, but in another way by glance, by touch, in any medium that I know but you seem to be falling apart hinting you wouldn't stay So I grab on to you with the last grains of courage I know its now or never and nothing can be done all my hope is yours, nothing else left but rage Would you leave me into the dark, nowhere to run

Was it greed that came before at the hour, with a knock on the door It was a time for my decision oh how I have loathed this situation For ever since I could remember I fear not choosing what is better I fear that choosing itself is losing and in losing I fear would be my undoing Is it greed that came over me like a need that I know is a want Wanting all, where only one path I see I wish there was a way, I wish and I want But nothing else is there but anguish With my indecision and my foolish wish And here I am wanting a little bit more A little more than I know, I am worth of, worthy for

Am I just an addiction relapse onto the staircase where I jump Just when I just about to reach the summit of my own freedom I jump, loving the agony and indecision I try, and then again, I try not to stumble You don't need to lecture me in a weird syntax You know it just annoys me rather than to relax I am just the tears that I wipe just to shed anew I am a prisoner, swallowing my own key I am the man who admits his faults and proceed I am just another repeat offender I am costly and almost a lost cause I cry in self hate, as pride dictates for I should fix my own mistakes But I am already broken beyond repair and it seems no one else seem

I'd love to be the person you've wanted me to be that happy go lucky, wild eyed dreamer that I was But the thing is, it was in the past. Yes, that phase had passed I am that bittered face, sleepy eyed,fatigued man before you because you took for granted that I will never change because I took for granted my own innocence Because you underestimate what the world could do to me and because I overestimate what I'll do to the world if it hurt me so here I am, a dark reflection of my own self the person, I didn't want to be but have to Born out of my will and of survival who set aside all those funny things and called it trivial All I can say i

                 I              It was I          I remember it, I         who saw through you      Drowning in that gutless lie Chained in its weight and unable to fly  so I put a fire on through your soul     with every effort took its toll       and I become close to empty         but I trudge with folly           even when faltering             I keep looking                I look                 See                  I